Dont you realize

Dont you realize..

that Everytime you drink yourself drunk
say that my father is a disgusting pig
say that u failed in raising me and my brothers
say that i will never be able to live my dreams.
it hurts, but you dont see that or care about that..

you only care that YOU have problems
and instead of fixing them...
you drink alcohol like water

Dont you realize..

that sometimes i just want to drink myself drunk
forget about my hurt
forget about my problems
forget that tomorrow will come..
forget the things you say to me...
forget that nobody is behind my back supporting me..
but instead i just try to pull through without anyone...

Dont you realize..

that sometimes we need support...
that you dont give... sober or drunk...
you just fight if we try talking to you about our problems...
you never listen if we ask you to please stop...
what will drinking fix?... why wont u just go and get help...
because your tearing our family apart...
one day we will leave...
and if this keeps on...
at least i wont return...