Giving In..

I was doing so great.
My arms were clean except for the scars from the crazy past.
I was always able to resist the taunting calls of the blade after every fight.
But... This time was different.
The blade was screaming at me!
It was an ear splitting scream I tell you!
How could I not give in?!
How could I resist that horrid yell?!
Now my blood flows down my arm.
Relief overwelms me.The blades insane screams die,
Along with all the reasons not to give in.
So now I wait,
Hoping for another crazy fight,
To give in again to the blades screams.