I Can't Fly

I’m not gonna lie, I kind of like the pain.
It’s kind of like going out and dancing in the rain.
When I come back to the warmth in my house,
I feel relief that no pills will ever douse.

I have to tell myself, tonight
I don’t need to die, I cannot fly.
It’s in my brain, something’s not right.
I don’t need to die, I cannot fly.

Bang my head against the wall,
The relief I feel when it’s done.
I hear the ringing, I think it’s your call.
You’re here to end my sick, twisted fun.

I have to tell myself, tonight
I don’t need to die, I cannot fly.
It’s in my brain, something’s not right.
I don’t need to die, I cannot fly.

There’s a gun to my head,
or a noose around my neck.
I’ve gone too far, I’m gonna fall off the edge.
I’m a disgusting wreck.

I don’t need to die, I cannot fly.
I don’t need to bleed, I cannot see.
I don’t need to overdose, I cannot breath.
I have to save myself, before I go too far.
I have no one, no superhero, or savior.

I’m alone again, I’m not gonna pretend.
I have to save myself, tonight
I don’t need to die, I cannot fly.
It’s in my brain, something’s not right.
I need to die, I have proof, I can’t fly.