Nicotine

Late night spent in silence
A lighter in hand, empty pack on the floor
I've got burns on my eyelids
Stains on the parts of my body where you touched

Inside there's this flame that's igniting
Smoke flying from my head
Curling it's way around my neck
Slithering and sly, I lose my breath

Just one more, I think to myself
The nicotine so addicting
I need to cure these emotions
This shaking building up in me

Battle of what I need and what is right
Heat churning around my stomach
Exploding as I gasp for clean air
To escape these walls I've caught myself in

I'm back on that road in the snow
Holding your hand as tightly as I can
You will me to go forward
Losing my senses I step up

The first drug deal isn't that bad
The smoke hits me hard
I want to choke, but I don't
Because you're there

Snow falls around us lightly
On the walk back to your house
Bundle of nerves
Anticipation of what's to come

Musty scent of your room
First blow and we're set
Welcome to heaven you
Together here we fit

Clenching of the chest
Losing all sense of touch
Darkness inching closer
Roller coaster high on edge

You slip through my fingers
As my feelings mix with the flames
My face swells from the crying
The cigarette butts caressing my tears

Late night spent in silence
Thinking back to those years
I've got scars imprinted on me
A forever dark that lives in here

Prisoner in this final room
No goodbye to you
Just the faint memory
Of those times back in the day

With that lighter in hand
Me standing above all
Your lips colliding with mine
As I took the drugs in my mouth

Lungs feeling heavy
Weights on my shoulder overbearing
Me torn between you and that room
Finally snapping.