Changed.

How can you look at yourself and not be ashamed?
It is killing me to see
That you are not who you used to be!
You know the dad who could pick out the hurt in my voice?
Or the one who could read me like a book?
When did you think it was okay to push me aside?
When did I stop being YOUR world?
See now, I look into your eyes,
To see a stranger staring back.
Can't you see?
What this is fucking doing to me?
Is it not enough to say that I need you too?

Where did you go?
I sit there trying to scream for you to listen.
But you just push me aside, and let them
All treat me like some dirty infection.
When did I stop being Daddy's Little girl?
Do you even remember when you were my world?
I honestly can say,
You are still pushing me away.
Daddy it hurts.
Come and stay and make this all go away?
Can you remember that sound?
Of a little girl screaming for you to be around?
No I guess not, because you were always there.
I never had to scream before.
I guess you forgot, because you found something better.

Sometime I just wish you could see,
For a moment what it's like to be me.
To see her daddy wrapped up in shame.
With no one but himself to blame.
But you are still in there somewhere,
Deep down fighting to break free,
At least I want that to be true,
Because I fucking miss you.
Is this what you wanted?
For me to feel so haunted?
Everyday is like a competition for you.
Is that what you wanted dad?
To make me feel like I am going mad?

I am glad you found something that makes you feel whole,
But you want to know something I have come to know?
Even if you have stopped reading my eyes,
I still read yours.
You aren't happy,
So we do you continue to put up lies?
It crushes me inside,
I feel like I am going insane.
Daddy, I still love you,
But holy fuck you Changed.