Fifteen

Haven’t you got eyes in the back of your head,
Is that not what you said when I was younger?
I would see some time from then, isn’t that what you said?

Haven’t you known me all along,
When I was younger, when I was wrong,
Haven’t you know me all along, or did you not know me at all?

Mother, I think the time has come,
To confess unto you some truths,
Mother, I think you know what I’ve done,
So there isn’t much of a use.

Hadn’t you known me better,
Hadn’t you not known me at all,
Be I the burden, be I the fortune,
That was the birth of your rise and fall.
Hadn’t you spent your lifetime,
Hadn’t a day you went,
If you were given another chance,
Would you go about life different?

Mother, I think I know now,
What I refused to acknowledge then,
Mother, I think you taught me well,
If only I would have chosen to listen.

Haven’t I gone and done it now,
Too bad I can’t take back what I did,
Haven’t I gone and done it now, though you did not raise me for this.

Haven’t you been here since way back when,
Is that my mind playing some simple tricks on me,
I remember your face back from then, but not who I use to be.