Ultimate Mary
I close my eyes, trying to block out the yelling
The bottles next to me, empty glass, bitter taste of whiskey on my mouth
I feel sick, sick in the head, sick in the stomach
But most of all sick of you
You stalk back in the room, grabbing your bags, telling her to get the drinks
I try not to think about what I've just done as you walk past me
She clings to your arm, I want to fucking scream
You leave in the car, while I'm left sitting on that swing
Never truly moving forward, stuck in a constant pattern
Getting close then falling back, reaching out but stumbling
Missed again, where to go, how do I stay sane
Envelope myself in girls, a lying game
Each time it ends the fucking same, falling back to the ground
Pulling out my hair, the tears poisoning my veins
I just want to feel alive again, exhale all my pain
Inject the needle hard, shoot up, laugh in rage
Let my past run down my arms, fly off my fingers into the fire
I want it all to burn away, while an angel pulls me from the flames
Caressing my body with her hands, kissing my curves against hers
Enveloping me in robes of silk perfection, tickling all my strings
Closing my eyes just to breathe, forgetting my old history
Together with this silent angel may our bodies sing
Opening the eyes, the must getting to my head
I need out of the room, where my heart became so fucking dead
Cold as steel, barbed with wire, I cringe whenever it digs into my skin
Ribcage cracking, bones are snapping, I'm terrified on this bed
Where are my feet, I wish I could speak, lump in my throat, I can't think
Flashes of you, then flashes of me, what we once had, all frustrating
You liar, I suddenly want to scream, run to that car and hit it till I bleed
You fucking slut, playing your heart games, pulling girls close then pushing away
How many hundreds do you have to break, all in my situation going insane
Left to curl up with nothing but shame, knowing we were foolish to believe your ways
You deserve to burn from all the damn heartbreak, drown in the the ocean of tears we've made
God forbid my life threatening mistake, if you stayed would I be in this pain
Tormented inside, unable to know the truth about the demons you latched to my soul
Where is my savoir, my ultimate Mary, a woman so pure she'll never risk daring
When will she come, with a blanket of light to wrap me in
How long will I wait, on that swing of my fate, until that happiest of days
Bright flash of red lashes out in my face, my body freezes as I grip the chains
Mutilating my mind with your innocent 'hey'
Girl why do you have to keep coming back to ruin my days
Telling me she was nothing, that you made a mistake, trying to lure me back with your gaze
My body is paralyzed yet I still shake, my pieces start flying
Until the wind blows my ashes away.
The bottles next to me, empty glass, bitter taste of whiskey on my mouth
I feel sick, sick in the head, sick in the stomach
But most of all sick of you
You stalk back in the room, grabbing your bags, telling her to get the drinks
I try not to think about what I've just done as you walk past me
She clings to your arm, I want to fucking scream
You leave in the car, while I'm left sitting on that swing
Never truly moving forward, stuck in a constant pattern
Getting close then falling back, reaching out but stumbling
Missed again, where to go, how do I stay sane
Envelope myself in girls, a lying game
Each time it ends the fucking same, falling back to the ground
Pulling out my hair, the tears poisoning my veins
I just want to feel alive again, exhale all my pain
Inject the needle hard, shoot up, laugh in rage
Let my past run down my arms, fly off my fingers into the fire
I want it all to burn away, while an angel pulls me from the flames
Caressing my body with her hands, kissing my curves against hers
Enveloping me in robes of silk perfection, tickling all my strings
Closing my eyes just to breathe, forgetting my old history
Together with this silent angel may our bodies sing
Opening the eyes, the must getting to my head
I need out of the room, where my heart became so fucking dead
Cold as steel, barbed with wire, I cringe whenever it digs into my skin
Ribcage cracking, bones are snapping, I'm terrified on this bed
Where are my feet, I wish I could speak, lump in my throat, I can't think
Flashes of you, then flashes of me, what we once had, all frustrating
You liar, I suddenly want to scream, run to that car and hit it till I bleed
You fucking slut, playing your heart games, pulling girls close then pushing away
How many hundreds do you have to break, all in my situation going insane
Left to curl up with nothing but shame, knowing we were foolish to believe your ways
You deserve to burn from all the damn heartbreak, drown in the the ocean of tears we've made
God forbid my life threatening mistake, if you stayed would I be in this pain
Tormented inside, unable to know the truth about the demons you latched to my soul
Where is my savoir, my ultimate Mary, a woman so pure she'll never risk daring
When will she come, with a blanket of light to wrap me in
How long will I wait, on that swing of my fate, until that happiest of days
Bright flash of red lashes out in my face, my body freezes as I grip the chains
Mutilating my mind with your innocent 'hey'
Girl why do you have to keep coming back to ruin my days
Telling me she was nothing, that you made a mistake, trying to lure me back with your gaze
My body is paralyzed yet I still shake, my pieces start flying
Until the wind blows my ashes away.