Why Should I?

I forget about life,
as i just play with this knife.
Watch it slice my skin,
don't see how this is such a sin.
This is my choice,
but i only do it because i cant use my voice.
I don't care what they're saying
This is the price that im paying.
Hope your seeing the hate in my eyes,
i cover my life in fear and lies.
Life isn't just one happy ending,
you know there's hate, can't stay pretending.
Light sheds here and there in my shadows of dark.
Look up at the heavens like stalker in the park,
wishing i could be there,
Alteast there someone would care.