I Woke Up Older

I took a turn for the worst
when i woke up
noticed you were gone
and I knew you wouldn't be back
that is why I woke up older

I couldn't understand
understand the pain
the pain of being lost
that is how I woke up older

I woke up to find
the smell of shame and sex
the shame was from
my repeated sins

I can't run from them
I can't hide from them
I can't shut out their voices
that is how I knew I woke up older

I just knew
I'd find someone else
Someone else to take the pain
that is how I woke up older

Every bit of ecstasy
can't take away
the pain from you
that is how I knew I woke up older

I made love to someone
and I was thinking of you the whole time
even though you hurt me
I will always wake up older

A woman told me
she told me she knew you
she knew that you'd kill every part of me
and she was right

Every morning
I will wake up older