sorry

I close my eyes,
Slice Slice Slice.
The pain is vain.
Numbness comes over me,
I can't feel the emptyness
that covets over me.
I close my eyes
Drip Drip Drip.
Such a familar sound
I can't hear it anymore.
I look around to make
sure no one is around,
when I see him standing
at the door.
I loved him,
but now I see
I hurt him,
more than he ever hurt me.
He begs me to stop,
but I refuse.
Myself I have to amuse.
I'm tired of the lies.
When will you quit messing around?
I'm sorry I say.
As i put the knife down, and
run away.