This Life in Shadows

Silence in echos,
Breathing in gasps,
Thoughts in illogic,
Room shrouded black,
Watching like movies,
Lapses in mind,
Motionlessly dizzy,
Clocks in rewind.
Safely dishonest,
Deflecting betrayal,
Breaking the records,
And still, again I fail.

Enough of this.
You know well why,
Fall aside, apart,
But I will not just die.