little girl lost

it's hard to believe that the girl
i was back in august/september
is the same girl i am today.

she was carefree and happy,
she never told a lie and she
never let the world see how
damaged she was inside.

now she's self-destructive
and rebellious, always out
partying and getting drunk
and living by the phrase
"you're only young once"

and it scares me, because truth is,
i don't know who i am any more.

(and i don't think i want to.)