Splitting Shells

Shipwrecked on a high
My minds off in the clouds
While my body's on the seaside
I'm staring up at bridges
One's you carefully built
Splitting shells beneath my toes
Trying to find a sense of myself
Because girl you've got me going crazy
This rush I get from your gaze on me
Shy as a mouse I hate this feeling
How I wish I could bring you toward me
But you built these walls tall
Got these waves crashing on me
Water filling up my throat
Till I can barely breathe
And I'm reaching for safety
Someone to rescue me from seeing
How you dance like no other being
Hair flying in the wind
You ballerina in the spotlight
Twirl on your toes and sing
Hands held high as you repeat
A chorus floating through the breeze
Surrounding me till I can't think
You've got me pinned like clothes to a line
Stripping me down till I can't fight
Helpless girl on the sidelines
Wanting you so bad it's fucking with her mind
God why is this so heartbreaking
Why do I feel my whole soul shattering
Water beating down on me
I try to go toward you but I'm drowning
The salt burns my aching skin
As I try to fucking swim
And you turn to face the other girl
Reaching for her as your toes melt
You crave the sense of her touch
I want you just as much
Why is it I can never be enough
There's always that other one
The seaweed grabs at my feet
I'm brought down to my knees
The ice cold sting of reality
Loving you so much I'm suffocating
And you don't even see.