cut swallow die

I cut myself today
and i don't know what to say
but it felt good in a special way
dripping down my arm was blood
wiping it off as best i could
pouring alcohol hurt
then again it felt so good
the pain just needed to leave
blood covered my sleeve
and then i did the unthinkable
i overdosed on a lot of pain pills
i thought that if i died
the pain would be gone
but i'm still alive
so i guess i was wrong