I Know That I Am Sick

I knew that I was sick when that little silver blade became my lifeline.
When it became my love,
My want,
My need,
My addiction,
My reality.
I didn't want to be like this.
I don't want to be this way.
You don't want me to be like this.
Yet, you made me this way.
♠ ♠ ♠
i wrote this in basically 5 minutes in math class while i had black dahlia by hollywood undead stuck in my head <3
critique is always welcome:)