Forever the Secret Optimist

Insignificant.

That's exactly what I am.
Nothing more,
Certainly less.

I've become lost in that sick light they call hope.
I've fallen.
And I can't stand.

This is one place I swore I'd never be,
I've reached the point of no return.

I climbed so high.
I never dreamed it would collapse so soon.

Forever the secret optimist.

I should have known.
I should have given up.
I thought I could win.

All's fair in love and war?
I disagree.

I'm shattering as we speak.
And you've yet to see,
Yet to realize
Exactly what you do to me.

It's not my place to tell.
Not my place to cry.
Not my place to beg.

But, love,
You're a sweet nightmare.
And I hope never to leave your grasp.