I Need You

If I could save myself,
I would still be here.

I need you.
I'd fall to my knees over and over,
Before I'd find the will to walk away.

"Deserve" is such an awful word.
It counts for nothing.
I deserve better,
I need less.

I haven't been driven entirely blind.
I know.
I see.
I hate.

I'll keep chasing the pain.
I'll embrace the sorrow.
I'll swallow the screams.

For just that touch,
That kiss.
Those words.

You are my rise,
And you are my downfall.
Until I've reached that bittersweet end.