The Only Road That I Have Ever Known

(Another boy and another disappointment. Although, I do still have him as a friend. This poem is about my past few days.)

The Only Road That I Have Ever Known

What the hell just happened there?
I though my heaven was all right
I could see the future in front of me
And for once, it was a pretty sight

But within a minute
Or two, I don’t remember
All the plans slid away
As summer in September
He never knew it then
Standing in the same place
Where I lost my first love
Shadows dancing in his place

And a song resonates through my skull
Like a million times before
And the pretty hugs come back again
As friends try to smooth my cores

And while they help to heal a blow
That I was dealt today
I feel the same guilt sliding back
Blocking my clear way
The path I though I had
Put up construction signs
And I’m forced upon a detour
That is only in my mind
I understand the reasons
He gave that let me go
And I understand the complements
That he wishes me to know
Because I know he means them well
And I know that they are true
But they can’t change the air
Of what he is about to do

And none of them will help
And now a friend is all I have
In the boy I thought would stay
And I am left again so sad

But I am not afraid
Do not get me wrong
Though hurt continues, it will wave
And I’ll still have my song

There is a boulevard
That I have always known
And on this lovely lonely street
I will always walk alone

(Thank You for my street Billie Joe.)