Speak my Mind.

Confidence is something to take for granted
Getting cocky eyed at the swing of things
Thinking that you are unstoppable
When the reality is, you're more breakable than ever
Standing in front of that audience
Having to search for your inner voice
How is it you can look so calm and collected
Strut your stuff and recite so loudly
Word for word you speak
And I'm just searching for the next line
Do I continue this run on sentence
Drag out the same thought process
Just to hold on to the memory,
That associates with the emotion
I have become addicted to it
It's like the injection all over again
This fiery sensation that envelopes me
Ebbing at my inner cords
Twisting me in the direction of miscommunication
My mouth spinning from my head
Moving at a speed faster than light
And I float so high in my inner chamber
As my reality distorts into a dream
Two perceptions of what it is that I am observing
My honesty clashing with a gut feeling
And I am forced to walk onto that stage
To stare at strangers faces and forget
Where am I supposed to take this next
Do I bullshit my way through it
Like I do everything
Or for once
Do I actually speak my mind.