i needed you

When I needed you,

you weren't there

When I called your name

all you did was stare

I needed you when my

life was falling apart

When everyone in it

was breaking my heart

I needed you when I

decided to cut my skin

When there was no other way

to control my feelings within

I needed you when I

cried for hours alone

When in those hours

I cried in your home

I needed you when I had

nothing to believe in

When I felt that there

was no way I could win

I needed you when I

completely hated life

When I had no help through

it but a pocket knife

I needed you when I

got into fights

When I stayed up

all through the nights

And I really needed you

when I decided to die

So I left a note with my last

words: I'm sorry..goodbye