Hear My Sorrowful Hymn From This Funny Hell I'm In(joker-ish inspired)

I want to capture who I am
Put it in words as best I can

I was nice and quiet, your best friend
But you showed me otherwise, that was the end

I fell apart
Abused my heart

Disturbed my mind
There's no turning back time

I went through a phase
Escaped a heavy haze

Its taken so long
But now I know I was wrong

There's no one to trust
Promises dropped to dust

Ill laugh at you twice before I end your life

Once, for your pathetic lies
And once, for the dread and fear in your eyes

Its not me against the world, that's in the past
Its me on top of the world, my new task

Ill show you, its all fake
The help they pretend to offer, makes me ache

The love they say they spread
The words fill me with dread

I had been broken
From the words you all had spoken

And healed with a skin so bold
Ill make your blood run cold

No emotion in sight
Not the slightest spark of light

Dead, but alive
Off your pain I thrive

Sad, I know
How I don't let emotion show

Its a joke
The condolences for me, that you spoke

But your tears bring me a sadistic bliss
It was over for me, now its your life you'll miss