Every Time

Every time.
I scrunch my nose.
I feel my heart turn cold.
I snarl in disgust.
I clench my jaw.
I narrow my eyes.

Every time.
I still dare to talk to you.
I still talk to you,
Even though you hurt me.
I still smile at your lame jokes,
I still let you come with me.
You don't care,
Though you claim you do.

Every time.
You ask what's wrong.
You ask how I am.
You ask me too many questions.
You smile at me,
And expect a smile back.
But I answer,
And I smile back anyway.

Every time.
I regret talking to you.
I regret meeting you.
I regret all of those words,
I wasted with you.

Every time.
I scrunch my nose.
I feel my heart turn cold.
I snarl in disgust.
I clench my jaw.
I narrow my eyes.
You are no longer worth anything.
Not my time.
My love.
My care.
You are worth nothing to me.