Pain

Don’t you treat me like I just don’t exist
for your life will change when you decide to ignore.
And don’t you act like it’s all fine; now I’m caused to shut out my thoughts
barricade my mind.
So receive your peers praises and acceptance
and allow me
one of those you have hurt
to thank you for giving out hate.
Look at what you did; you are part of the cause
now I’m out, I’m lost, momentarily gone.
And again I’m just pacing up and down these lonely halls
and I’ll give you a hint
nobody’s home.
That’s right, you guessed it, I’m still on my own.
The weeks start and end at the speed of sound
and the weekends are dull and lazy when no one is around.
And then, just think, the cycle starts again.
It’s just how it flows
yet all too soon.
I keep saying, “don’t let them change who you are
block it from your mind, move on and ignore.”
But words are simple whereas actions are not
so I fall back down and watch as my hope drowns in their endless pit of hate.
Times change but people shouldn’t
they’re missing out on what could have been
but I know deep down that this too is not my fault but instead their own.
Live my life as if I don’t care
but don’t let them see just how much damage they have done.
Try and put yourself in my place if only for a solitary day
to see and feel all of what I have to go through
sun up to sun down.
And at the end of the day ask yourself how it feels
is it all worth the pain of being left out?