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What if you had not emptied that bottle?
You wouldn't have left a mark on my face.
My awakening would have been subtle,
And there wouldn't be a hole in your place.

What if you had held true to your promise?
My learning heart would not have felt betrayed.
I would still live in an ignorant bliss:
Our kisses still as sweet as lemonade.

What if you had just kept yourself in check?
I would not have been blinded by rage.
I would not be an emotional wreck.
You would have lived to an older age.

What, my true love, if I had not killed you?
I never would have thought our love morbid,
Would not question what I thought at I do...
I would not wonder if I ever did.