I want
I want my Ce.
I want my Yu.
I want my Sky.
I want my Helia.
I want my Snow.
I want my Tidus.
I want my Hyoue.
I want my Tamahome.
But none of them can compare to the one I lost.
No one can come close to compare,
When it comes to the love I was stupid enough to loose.
He shines brighter than any star.
And is sweeter than any sugar.
If I hadn't been so stupid to not see the signs,
Maybe things would be different.
Maybe I would not have lost all that I did.
I wish I could turn back time.
So that I can change all the bad things I did.
I regret all the harsh words I said.
I love you so much,
But you don't feel the way I do.
You love me sure,
But not nearly as much as I love you.
I hate myself so very much.
I wish I could die.
I hope you never see just how much I have to lie.
To keep you safe from worrying so very much,
I put on my happy mask to give you my most loving touch.
I wish you knew Just how much I love spending time with you.
Even though I suffer so much, by letting you kiss me still.
My heat only beats for you.
Even though yours beats for another.
I will wait all along untill the day you are mine again.
For now I will wait alone and scared.
Counting the cuts I slice in my loneliness.
I'll fight off my depression,
And the thoughts of suicide
And think of all our memories instead.
And hope they will be enough to save me.
I love you J. ~♥~
I want my Yu.
I want my Sky.
I want my Helia.
I want my Snow.
I want my Tidus.
I want my Hyoue.
I want my Tamahome.
But none of them can compare to the one I lost.
No one can come close to compare,
When it comes to the love I was stupid enough to loose.
He shines brighter than any star.
And is sweeter than any sugar.
If I hadn't been so stupid to not see the signs,
Maybe things would be different.
Maybe I would not have lost all that I did.
I wish I could turn back time.
So that I can change all the bad things I did.
I regret all the harsh words I said.
I love you so much,
But you don't feel the way I do.
You love me sure,
But not nearly as much as I love you.
I hate myself so very much.
I wish I could die.
I hope you never see just how much I have to lie.
To keep you safe from worrying so very much,
I put on my happy mask to give you my most loving touch.
I wish you knew Just how much I love spending time with you.
Even though I suffer so much, by letting you kiss me still.
My heat only beats for you.
Even though yours beats for another.
I will wait all along untill the day you are mine again.
For now I will wait alone and scared.
Counting the cuts I slice in my loneliness.
I'll fight off my depression,
And the thoughts of suicide
And think of all our memories instead.
And hope they will be enough to save me.
I love you J. ~♥~
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Ok, so for this your really need to understand the names. The first two names are from Dynasty Warriors, Zhou Yu and Sun Ce. the next two are from Winx club, Prince Sky and Helia. Next two are from Final Fantasy Tidus (X) Snow (XIII) next is Hyoue from Her Majesty's Dog, and last is Tamahome from Fushigi Yuugi. They are all some of the best anime/game guys I have ever seen and I love them all so much. They all posses the characteristics of the type of man I love. Strong, Brave, Loyal, Sweet, Caring, Considerate, and they would all do anything to protect the one they love. Now after that It goes to say that the man I lost was better than all these other guys ( if they were real guys obviously xD ) and shows how much I love him and want him to be mine again. And at the end how I am effected by letting him show me all the sings of love still even though he is not mine alone. If there is anything else you want to know just ask me ^~^