No longer a family, just broken.

I have no family
I'm alone
A brother who doesn't care about anythig
Not even our grandmother
Not a mother to care about me
An absent father
I just want to leave
No longer breathe
Scream till I bleed
Take out all my pain
Yeah I used to think this all didn't exist
And that it was all lame
A few years ago I should have known
Nothing was ever going to be the same
No love here
They wouldn't even hold me when I ran scared
Back when I thought I had a famil.
They all bring shame to this once well known name
Only few that even care
They hug and hold me like a teddy bear
I keep my emotions bundled up inside where they belong
Belong?
Such a funny word
Where do I belong?
Who am I supposed to be?
One day I might see
Scars I do have
The ones that bled on the inside and out
Wars and battles of the past...
How long will all this last?