Killing you, Killed me

I took that knife to my wrist,
Pulling it along the surface,
Maybe gave it a little twist.
Not sure if I'll be missed,

Because..

I tore her heart apart,
Smashed it on the floor
But that's just where it starts.

Soon...

That blade bites deeper.
Cutting out the monster that I've become.
Killing of the Demon I am.
Purifying this child that's damned.

I love you...

But that's not how it works,
I broke your heart.
Turned into a nightmare,
Is that why you hurt?

I give up...

On life,
On you,
On me.
All I feel now is more pain,
More misery.

All I give is hurt,
All I want is pleasure.
To corrupted to even notice
The treasure you are.

Scarred...

On the inside.
But now it's on my outside.
My skin deserves to be fried
For all my lies.

I'm sorry...

I'm a monster
That should never have been born,
Torn,
Between begging for forgiveness,
Or just taking that blade and taking care of the business
I left unfinished.
Just a year ago,
It was all just a show.
A lie that I was smiling,
But I just want to go.

Forever...

This hurt will burn,
My heart will yearn,
For those soft blankets of darkness.
To which I can't return.
And you spurn,
Me for every fucking mistake I made.
I deserve worse.

Much worse...

I'm a coward though,
Can't do it.
Can't cut out my heart and impale it.
End my life once and for all.
You hate me now.
Can you?
Can I walk up to you and hand you the knife,
Let you take a swipe,
Filled with all your pain and sorrow.
Making sure I see no tomorrow.

Please...

I don't want to be here anymore.
All I've done is kick all your dreams away.
Let them rot in some forgotten place,
Threw them out the door.

Crying...

Tears of anguish and pain.
So deep my scars look like scraps,
My pouring blood like small drops of rain.
Compared to the ocean,
The chasm my heart contains.

Goodbye...

I love you but I got to go.
Don't know if I'll ever say your name again.
Sorry What I right is so depressing,
But then again.
I sure no one will be missing,
Me.
Behave girl,
I wish I could of at least held you once,
Too bad.
That's what I get for being such a dunce.
Farewell.
Sincerely,
Sebastian LaShon Wetterling.
The Angel That Fell...