Purgatory

I cant tell if what I'm doing
Is like what I did before,
When I was using you
Like an addict shooting up on the floor.

I think that's what is happeneing
With a new nice, innocent boy,
He really wants me to love him
But everything I love gets destroyed.

That's what happened to us
when we fell so deep in lust,
It quickly turned into love
And I was too afraid to trust.

You moved on so fast to true love
Leaving me lost in envy,
And a pain I'd never experienced
That I exchanged with a blade so heavenly.

I never seemed to get fully over
All the hurt that you caused me,
So now I don't know what to do
When opportunity comes knocking.

This new boy is such a sweet kid
That I don't want to corrupt,
Like you corrupted me
I'd rather continue to self-destruct.

But there a chance that he could save me
With nothing but a feeling so pure,
But I'm too fucking indecisive
So I'll sit in purgatory forever more.