These thoughts floating

These dark thoughts
They spread through my mind
They're taking over
Slowly with time

I can't take it anymore
I'm wearing thin
I'm breaking down
Falling to the ground

The pain is growing
The one deep inside
It's not from anyone
But me, myself and I

I have been a broken soul
For a little while now
But I've been trying so hard
To stay strong for others

Yet, from the drama
And everything else
My will has weakened
And I'm coming to my end

How much pain can I take?
How many days must I suffer?
Why does no body see,
This pain deep inside me?

I love my friends
And I love my family
But everything is too much
And one can only take so much

I'm at my limit
I've held back too long
It's consuming me
This monster that's inside

I've always been the strong one
The one like glue
The one to keep others together
Yet now I need some guidance

I want to leave this hell
The horrid thoughts to end myself
Are creeping back on me
And I cannot stop them anymore

I've been keeping them at bay
And I've been fighting so hard
But no one seems to notice now
Just how bad it's become

I need an escape
One that I know can help
But I won't lift a blade
Nor a bottle of pills

I will not cut myself tonight
I will not ever again
I will not kill myself
No matter how bad the thoughts get

I know I may seem foolish
But it's something I can't control
The depression is back full force
And I can't hide it any more

So I'm begging you please
Save me from this hell
Take me far away
From my every dreaded day

A new town is doubtful
A new life is impossible
And suicide is not my answer
Can I please leave my school?

I'm pleading for an escape
Pleading to get away
Yet no one seems to notice
How desperate I really am

I just can't do it
I can't handle much more
I'm at my breaking point
Please don't let me suffer much more