Taking Over Inside.

I can feel my mind fading away,
And everything I stand for sinking to the ground.
I get so lonely, and so sad.
I cry and nothing feels any different.
I can't go back to who I used to be.
I've come so far down the path of recovery.
But I'm still just wasting.
Sitting here, wasting myself.
I wish the emptiness that I feel inside could just go away.
Or that I could just disappear.
I am not lovable,
I am not pretty,
I am not good enough.
All I want is a real friend...