This pain, this is the one I live for

I fall deep, deep with the blade.
I let the blood flow, i let the pain go.
This pain, this is the one i live for.
I find power, not in the pen but the sword.
The blood is flowing now, the pain is rising.
I wait for it, wait for it to stop.
I don't think it will, at least not this time.
This is my end, this is the way i shall go.
I wrote to you all, you all shall know.
You should know, know how much of a disgrace I am.
Know the way I live, and the way i die.
It is always for you to know, or atleast you think.
This is my last goodbye, this is my final bow.
Goodbye all, Goodbye world.