Letting Go

Feeling the grasp of my love.

It slips away, ever so slightly, slipping between my fingertips like water once it touches the skin.
Remembering memories, as they float, like a boat on the water, finding the joy within.

Within me?
Within my heart.

Realizing that yourself is the one who is giving the pain, who is recieving, who is thinking.
It's all yourself.

Figuring out that moving on is best, not to give up, not to cry, not to be sad, but rejoice.
Rejoice to feel a whole heart once again.
Feeling like your heart is only half for years, because she has it, and she doesn't even want it.

She?
She doesn't have a say in your love.
She never even wanted your love.
Never inviting, never receiving.
She doesn't want to hurt you, so why are you hurting her?
You annoy her, you constantly tell your emotions to a girl who has none for you,
repetitive moments of her saying the most hurtful thing to hear.

"I'm sorry. I only like you as a best friend."

Then. It hits. Realization. Reality. Common sense.
Why waste time, when you can fix yourself?
Feel what you haven't felt in so long.
A whole heart.
She has half, she's always had half.
She does not love you back, nor will she ever, you have no chances, she's told you so.
So why aren't you letting go?
Slip through your fingertips away with the sadness, the fantasies, the hope.
Away with the remedies, the constant lyrics that plush through you.
Your mind.
Your body.
Your heart.

Let you go? Darling never. I can't. Thats what love is.
Never leaving, only getting stronger in time.
That is unless, the other person doesn't try.
She doesn't try, so why should I?
Dim the fire that burns passion in my eyes.
Stop the tears that sparkle when I cry.
Cry over her? Baby no. I never have.

I just cried over my love for you.
It hurts, forever loving, willing to love, person after person, never once even
being considered for emotions back.

But thats ok. You feel what you feel.
And I knew that my love for you was real.
But it dies now, and I realize, that the real choice has finally shown.
It's time heart.

Let her go.