To Just Giving Up.

Crazy. Am i? Sane. Coiuld i pretend?
I truly believe that nothing is going to be what i want it to be.
Nothing will fall at my fet.
Afraid. Afraid of leaving what i grew to know.
Run. Just to get away from my own living nightmare.
Just to get placed in a different home. With different faces and names.
To learn new rules. Learn new ways to get away with shit.
To begin all over.
Just to another sappy storie from another lonely girl.
To never getting away from everyone eles bullshit.
To be able to shut my blue eyes and not worry about what the day to come will bring.
I'm bound by fear of losing the pople i've grown to trust.
To the people i call my new family.
To new friends that have entered my broken life.
To never crying because i've lost all my of my emotions.
To feeling numb in a world that has no purpose through my eyes.
Scared. Just like i've always been. I'll never change.
Even if they say i will. They dont know what goes on in my head.
Even if they like to think they do. They have it all wrong.
They can do what they believe is right. I'll just play along.
Life is just a game that no one can ever win. There is no way to cheat.
Cheat. To leaving everyone behind and putting yourself six feet under.
Just to rot in the ground.
To just becoming a lost memorie. To ending a life that you could no longer control.
To ust becoming a coward.