There Was This Boy

Once upon a time,
there was this boy.

He was just a boy
but he seemed more

I'm not sure why

Perhaps it was his good looks
maybe it was his personality
(which was sometimes aggravating)

Whichever it was,
he drew people in
and they stuck around
despite his brutal honesty

Maybe that was why
he gave answers that was a bit hurtful
some went away, but many stayed
they liked the refreshing taste of it

At least I did
so I waited for a chance
a chance to talk to him
I waited for awhile

Until one day

One day, he called out
asking for people to talk
I did and I won his favor
so we talked for awhile

His difficulty with people
and his acceptance of me
just drew me in
it made me stupidly feel special

But all too soon,
the friendship crashed
I annoyed him
and we grew distant

I still cared about him

Always wondering how he was
what's he doing
how was his life
and if he thought of me

He, most likely, didn't
there were others
others to replace me
others who were far better, her

as time passed
my thoughts of him distant
until one day
one day

On Christmas

I contacted him and her
Nervously, I waited
days and days passed
but finally i got a reply

With joy, I thought it was him
but it was her
but it didn’t matter
it was ok

But it was not ok

It was not ok at all
she told me
I thought it was a lie
It couldn’t possibly be true

He’s d e a d

He’s gone
Disappeared

She broke down on me
not telling me enough
but I guess it’s not her fault
she and I didn’t live near him

So I grieved by myself

I didn’t want to blame her
but I blamed myself
for not having courage
to talk to him again

But sometimes, I can’t help
but think that she and others
were there so why
didn’t they help him

But it’s not their fault
it really isn’t
I wish I knew what happened
but he's gone now

And I really just miss him