Tired

I'm so tired, of how I feel.
I'm near the edge , I have reacted my breaking point.
I no longer want to hide what I feel inside
But yet I still do, they don't have a clue.
Why can't I be happy? Why can't i be loved for who I am?
What is wrong with me?
I can change,
I just want to be perfect in everyone's eyes
I want to be able to wake up with a smile and have it stay for a while.