A silent prayer

I don't wanna leave,
I don't wanna go. 
But he has plans for me,
That only he could possibly know. 

How long will I hurt,
How many tears will I shed;
Sleepless nights will I endure-
Before he once again brings my once still heart back from the dead?

It's hard to see the bigger picture,
When we look from such a tiny screen. 
It's hard to accept his plans,
To swallow every protest; every scream. 

But his plans-
Well there his plans. 
I just have to trust him;
He has my whole life in the palm of his hands. 

"lord let your will be done,
Show me where to go. 
I trust your plans,
The ones only you could possibly know."