road to recovery

its been a long road to follow
yesterday, today, and tomorrow
and its been dark
ever since i took this path
so many decisions, so much knowledge that I lack
so many roads that were both bright and dark
i went down each path, and with courage, I fought
ive walked down so many roads
none i could have imagined like this
the pain, sadness, fear, and despair
i walk alone
all i do is want to walk home
to the past
to the time when I was ill
to a place where I felt safe
a time that stood still
and yet I can't go back
to the life I used to have
I am in repair
and I am fixing myself by walking here