Trust in Us

I tried to put on tough face,
But secretly I prayed you honestly would want to
Earn my trust.
Seeing if you wanted this.
If you truly wanted me.

I was scared you were going to be like the rest.
Once they had me,
They went and stabbed me.
Not one fatal blow to get it over with; they were not that kind.
They created millions of little cuts around my heart.
Some that came dangerously close
To stopping it.

I wanted to give up.
To give in to the pain.
The suffering.

I started to believe I deserved all of it.
That “I’d never be good enough for anyone.
Someone else was always better.”
At least that’s what they always told me.
Taunting voices inside my head
Screamed things I never wanted to hear.

You showed me you are not like the rest.

You know I’m immensely insecure.
You know my weaknesses,
My fears.
And yet you still stay.

You know my passions,
My hopes and dreams.

You want to be a part of my future.
Because of you, I’m not afraid to start living.
I’m not afraid to fall asleep at night
And wake up in the morning.

You taught me how to be brave.
The amount of trust I put in you is scary sometimes.
Because I have never been this way with anyone else.
It’s worth every second, minute, hour, day, month.
Trust in Us.