Restriction
I hope for the day we'll have silver bands to clasp on each others hands
To finally embrace one another in the safety of ones bed
Mouths pressing together in an ecstasy that's able to dull the sting of evil words once said
And no longer will either of us presume we're better off dead
Because despite the scars that scatter our arms...
We've got two souls combined as one and love to keep us strong
Despite all the horrors that got us to the point we stand
We are able to step forward and be thankful for the peace that followed those years of pain
But that doesn't mean our visions aren't still clouded by those demon days
That the nails hammered by what once seemed like a sin still manage to dig into my skin
And I bleed thinking about the words exchanged in the past
How my heart broke every time the chorus of restriction prevented the only right I'd ever chosen
And the only decision I'd opened up to is the point it's all I needed
Emotions mixed into a playground game and I swore to them my feelings for you
But nightmares plagued my hopeful sleep
And the only thing I wished for was a glimpse of you
But each time they tore you from the safety of my arms as I'd weep
Being stripped of any pride I'd managed to keep
A naked body displayed convulsing constantly
Wrecking side from side, the sweat pouring from my skin to my sheets
Covering up the memories that still seeped their way through my skin
And I'm frozen in the fear that each time I shake I feel the hands that raked through the most private parts of me
The place I'd reserved for only you to see and yet even that bliss was taken by the monsters I'd only ever wanted to accept me
Months and months without me finding the words to say
Blocked by the wall built up by the dramatic change
And I just need to hear you say my name, tell me it'll all be okay
Because it's always you who has been there for me, understood that sometimes my imperfections get the best of me
And It's a horribly scary thing, but I'm willing now to let my fantasies get the better of me
The nights curled alone ease into a dreamless sleep without their claws grabbing at my feet
Positively radiating from each word we're able to speak, as insignificant to others it may seem
And I, for once, feeling closer to you than I dare speak
Yet words still conflicting with the battle within me, how do I express what I need
When there's only the slight hope of a maybe.
To finally embrace one another in the safety of ones bed
Mouths pressing together in an ecstasy that's able to dull the sting of evil words once said
And no longer will either of us presume we're better off dead
Because despite the scars that scatter our arms...
We've got two souls combined as one and love to keep us strong
Despite all the horrors that got us to the point we stand
We are able to step forward and be thankful for the peace that followed those years of pain
But that doesn't mean our visions aren't still clouded by those demon days
That the nails hammered by what once seemed like a sin still manage to dig into my skin
And I bleed thinking about the words exchanged in the past
How my heart broke every time the chorus of restriction prevented the only right I'd ever chosen
And the only decision I'd opened up to is the point it's all I needed
Emotions mixed into a playground game and I swore to them my feelings for you
But nightmares plagued my hopeful sleep
And the only thing I wished for was a glimpse of you
But each time they tore you from the safety of my arms as I'd weep
Being stripped of any pride I'd managed to keep
A naked body displayed convulsing constantly
Wrecking side from side, the sweat pouring from my skin to my sheets
Covering up the memories that still seeped their way through my skin
And I'm frozen in the fear that each time I shake I feel the hands that raked through the most private parts of me
The place I'd reserved for only you to see and yet even that bliss was taken by the monsters I'd only ever wanted to accept me
Months and months without me finding the words to say
Blocked by the wall built up by the dramatic change
And I just need to hear you say my name, tell me it'll all be okay
Because it's always you who has been there for me, understood that sometimes my imperfections get the best of me
And It's a horribly scary thing, but I'm willing now to let my fantasies get the better of me
The nights curled alone ease into a dreamless sleep without their claws grabbing at my feet
Positively radiating from each word we're able to speak, as insignificant to others it may seem
And I, for once, feeling closer to you than I dare speak
Yet words still conflicting with the battle within me, how do I express what I need
When there's only the slight hope of a maybe.