How did I get into this?

Sat in the dark
Been through a litre of vodka
Holding a knife to my wrist
How did I get into this?

Vampires and ghosts
Running through my head all the time
How long til I'm one of them.
How did I get into this?

You wouldn't look at me?
You just stared through me.
Did you think what would happen
Before you put the gun to your head
did you even care?

I watch the blood
A river pouring from my wrists
I see the darkness of death
How did I get into this?

Will anyone miss what I've been
Will anyone miss what I've become
Can anyone save me from this pain
Can anyone show me what I've become?

Maybe they though thy soved it
the fact they found out
they dont care what i do
walk into school drunk
fall all over the place
'go home, don't do it agin'
enough to make me stop?
I don't think

I tried
tried so hard
i know it can kill me
but i need the release
maybe one day i will see
the damage that i do to me
but for now
i need the cutting and the pills
the vodka in the morning
and soon they will see
how much it really is me.