A Wandering Soul

Right now I just can't move on
I can't turn away from this song
The reason why I've kept holding on
Has been gone for so long

The tears that I have shed
Are now dry and lifeless
As I lay curled on my bed
Thinking of a way to get out of this mess

When all I do is cry
And sob until there's no more
When all I remember is goodbye
Could I just close the door?

Because pain is taking over me
It's not like I wanted this
But still, every memory
Reminds me of how we used to kiss

Sometimes I feel like my heart is drowning
And no one can save it
From all the hurt and beatings
I will try to revive it

When everything I wanted is gone
I am just a wandering soul
Looking for a reason to hold on
But I am just another ghoul

The reason for my existence has left me
Nothing but memories are left
They forever haunt me
Like a song starting with a g clef

I'm no longer who I used to be
Time heals? I hope it does
Because I don't want people to remember me
As someone who eats dust

This heart will not remain broken
At least I hope it doesn't
Time will come when it will be unbroken
And to love you more? I wouldn't