I'm Drowning

These are my problems,
My burdens to bare.
No one else's to carry
And that's why I don't ever share.

Just keep them all to myself,
Pretend like I'm okay
Because no one ever questions a smile
They just believe everything that I say.

But I feel like I'm drowning,
With all of these thoughts in my head.
My regrets on constant replay
All of it weighing me down like lead.

I just want some light in my life,
This that really too much to ask?
Just something to make me feel again
Or maybe someone to care enough to see through my mask.

I'm always dragging this horse around
And no one seems to understand
No one seems to care.
And none of this was ever planned.

I can't escape my feelings
No matter how fast I run.
I just want to be happy.
I don't want to be God's pun.

I don't know what to do anymore
I'm so lost.
I want to be done with this life
Say goodbye and give it a good toss.

Start again
Maybe this time I'll become
Someone I actually like, but like I said
These are my problems.

They are mine alone.
So I'll choke them down.
Plaster on that lie
And never let them see me frown.