X's & nO's

I wish you had a white flag raised
to show that your heart belongs to me,
instead of the red one that you put up
and took my mind away from ease.

You stole my desire for independence.
My self-esteem has been mugged.
I took too many hits and now
am getting sick of you, my drug.

With my availability taken from me
how come I still sleep each night alone?
There has been a drought upon our bliss
and our happiness ceases to grow

I barley can taste your kisses now.
When you hug me you seem so scared.
I wish I could hold onto your affection
that never was really there.