Impossible Love

I tried to put the feelings aside
The feelings I felt for her
It was wrong and
She wouldn't feel the same way about me
I was in love with my best friend
She would think I was a freak
She would ignore me for eternity
She wouldn't understand
She also wouldn't understand the reason
I cry myself to sleep every other night
Thinking about her
And cutting my wrists
So that the pain will leave
It does, but then it returns
Back for more and more needy
I stare at my wrists,
Wanting to show her how I feel
But I can't
Because I'm already dead.