I'm Still Wondering

I was wondering
If you still thought about me
Still thought about the future
The way you used to
About the small things
Like our children and their names
I guess I will never know
You're too far gone
I can't reach you any more
I still feel the warmth of your hand brought
As it rest upon my shoulder
As you pressed the gun into my temple
Treatening to pull the trigger
If they didn't give you what you wanted
I thought you loved me
Until that day, when they took you away
I guess we have no future
You're still too far away
And I'm still wondering....