This Nightmare

I've been here before
I'm back again
Back to the screams and the tears
Back to the pain that lasts for years
Back to the scars that never heal
This nightmare's much too real
The stomach acid creeping up my throat
It's enough to make me choke
Choke on every breath and every thought that ever crossed my mind
On every word that's so absurd and oh so hard to find
It's enough to make me lose my strength and fall to my knees
It's enough to make me lose my mind and beg for appease
I write a letter every day -- in my head
Words left unsaid
I spew a speech every day -- in the mirror
For you, my dear