I Thought He Loved Me

I thought he loved me,
I now know that was a mistake,
I shouldn't have believed him,
It was all just fake.

I was nothing to him,
He just lied,
He'd ignore me when I needed him,
He didn't care if I died.

How did I fall for it?
He seemed so true,
So genuine and lovely,
Always knew the right thing to do.

But he didn't do the right thing,
He always made me cry,
It's not really love,
If it makes you want to die.

He destroyed my confidence,
Being aggressive and mean,
He was scary and depressing,
And everything in between.

He was always talking to someone else,
I was always the distraction,
I saw him in a golden light,
Which had actually been through refraction.

He wasn't what I saw,
Just what I wanted to see,
And now I know for certain,
I wasn't really happy.

He just called me names,
Told me what to do,
He always brought me down,
Made me feel unwanted too.

It was all just fake,
I wasn't who he wanted me to be,
He wasn't who I thought he was,
I just thought he loved me.