Endlessly Trapped

It's impossible to speak
When someone else is speaking louder.
It's getting harder to breathe
Because I'm stuck inside this crowd.
There's this voice I hear inside
Telling me disrespectfully
That now is not the time.
So when will it be?
When will be my turn to say what I think?
Will I ever get a chance?
Into despair I continually sink.
This is like some deadly dance.
I'm clearly not me.
Not anymore.
Can't be who I used to be
Without falling to my knees on the floor.
I want to take a moment,
A chance to stop and breathe.
But my body just won't relent
The thoughts buzzing inside of me.
I have to pull it together
Fake a smile another day.
I have to stand the weather
As my sanity drifts away.
They don't want to hear my problems.
I'm here to listen to theirs.
I'm sinking fast to hit Rock Bottom,
And so few seem to care.