Lost Along the Way

You are the light that guides my steps
Through the hard path I’ve chosen to stay
Living my life two places at the same
Time and age dark and scary as hell.

You are the place I run away to
Every time I can’t handle my truth
All I can feel is me craving for you
Always trying to make my way through.

Pretending my life is going just perfect
When I am alone I’m a pile of sick messes
When they’re all around all I can do is faking
When I’m with myself I’m a shame in my shelter.

I’m starting to lie, she can’t see my smile’s fake
I’m starting to cry, she ain’t see when it rains
I’m starting to cheat on my own judgments
I’m starting to kill for my loved ones’ sake.

It hurts when I’m here and you barely notice
It just hurts so much when I see you so lonely
It burns when my tears don’t fall for my pride
It burns when my ill won’t let me go far.

I am so addicted, I just cannot help it
Lost in my vice, can’t escape from the center
It’s not that I can’t, it’s just I don’t want to
Keep telling yourself what one day you will do.