Growing Up

I guess this is growing up
Dealing with the weight of the world
Watching and waiting.
While I sleep at night
I feel their breathing on my neck
Whispering words of the devil.

A brick shattered the window,
Fallen dreams held out in front me.
Taunting and tempting,
Ruined is the picture-perfect frame of what used to be
When all they did was believe
I could do anything and everything
But now with a cursed miracle,
I’m calling it quits the best way I can.

So I’ll stand my ground when he tells me,
“Don’t do this now,
We can figure it out.”
But I know better, that this won’t all go away,
With just a simple word play.

Is it this hard to watch it all fall apart before my eyes?
Everything I planned, thrown out the door,
Before a second glance

And just thinking about it,
Makes me choke
I became a disgrace to everyone I’ve known.
Make this quick,
Make it painless,
I’ll be gone in a second.